Hello World I Am Still Here and Kicking!

On Monday, I decided to drive out to the YMCA to renew my membership for this coming year.  I pulled into the parking lot and it was filled with cars- not one parking space was available. I kept driving around the parking lot, searching for a space.

As I kept driving in circles, I noticed more and more cars entering the parking lot.   It was like a mass convention was taking place that morning and it was only 9 am. 

This whole scene reminded me of my life.   So many challenges- so many problems, no spaces open, and more problems entering en mass – an overwhelming life- the type of life you might expect with cancer.  

In reality, though, my life is simple- and aggravating at the same time.  It is filled with anger- and joy.  You know, like everyone else’s. 

I am not a joiner- I don’t join every lung cancer awareness group around.  I read their literature.  I contribute.  One of them is always asking me to ‘tell my story’.

Guess what?  I am tired of ‘my story’.   I write these posts in order to let others with cancer know they are not alone and don’t have to be positive all the time.  I write these posts so others with cancer know that it is damn OK to be selfish with your time and resources.

I write these posts and participate in clinical trials out of pure selfishness.  It helps me more than anyone who reads or participates in them.  Very few do, and you know what – that is OK too.  

I write these posts for myself and for those who deal with cancer on a daily basis and sometimes feel guilty that they are surviving when others are not. 

Most importantly, I write these posts to kick myself in the butt every morning- to say HELLO world I am still here and kicking- and I hope all of you are too!